Friday, October 29, 2004

Thefacebook

Before going back to working on my midterm again, just had a funny story to tell...

So last night, I got an email alerting me that this dude supposidly from UCLA who I have never heard of or met in my life facebooked-me (http://www.thefacebook.com). So naturally, I went to check out his profile. Not only does this dude have a gazillion friends, but definately noticed that 90% of his contacts are Asian girls...talk about having an Asian fetish! Definately freaked me out a bit...

I did not add him on as a contact.

Thursday, October 28, 2004

Last Weekend

In the rush of things, I forgot to mention about an interesting visit that took place last weekend. Louis Brownstone (http://louisbrownstone.aiesec.ws), an ex LCP of ours, dropped by in Bloomington for a few days visit after a half a year rendezvous around the world.

It was great seeing him again. He still looked like he did in old times, but a bit lankier. Still had the same Louis spirit and Louis attitude. We were able to catch up for a bit during a Friday lunch, Beer Fest, and a little bit during our LC team building afternoon. Talking to him brings back a flood of memories of AIESEC from two years ago. Memories about the first scandalous YES conference in the Double Tree in Chicago, his video camera, bowling, the three Latinos, and all the other shenanigens that took place that year. Whenever I think back to that year, I remember how happy everyone was, how great everything seemed, how simple things were, how innocently I saw the world, and how much alcohol we consumed. It was my best year in AIESEC, both in terms of productivity and how much fun I had. Since then, no other year has yet even been able to rival that awesome year. Whenever I look back on things now and remember all that took place, there is a bitter sweet taste that always lingers around, kind of like the smell of wet pavement and grass lingers after a summertime storm. But unlike that summertime smell, I know that the high that I had, that almost everyone in AIESEC Indiana had back that one year, will probably never be felt again - at least not when I am still around. What a ball it was back then...

And on a side note, during Beer Fest, ran into a graduate student classmate of mine whose friend: a tall, blond, blue eyed guy with glasses, started speaking to me in Mandarin, Chinese! That took my by surprise, to say the least. Apparently, he spent six years in China studying Tibetan culture and just came from Tibet! I later found out from my classmate that the guy speaks fluent Tibetan...along with about seven other languages! Amazing... But there is also a very sobering moral to the story here - Princess and I should not take it for granted when we speak Mandarin amongst non-Asian faces. These days, who knows which person understands every silly little thing we are saying in Chinese. The stereotypical frat boy standing next to us while be chatter on might have spent most of his pre-college life in China!

No More Fickleness

Two decisions I have made about two topics this week that I've been so extremely fickle about:

- I will not get a cat.
- I will stay for Short Shit's birthday.

And that's that.

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

What a Week...

I'm taking a break now from my week of hell. How bad is it? It's about as low as Dante's inferno goes.

I've been so horribly fickle this week. I don't know what caused it - actually, I take it back. It's probably because I'm going crazy because of all the tests that I have been studying for and papers I've been writing. Case and point: my mind's been back and forth all earlier this week on whether or not I should adopt a cat. Four of my friends adopted cats the weekend before (no joke - all on the same day, from the same litter). I've always wanted a cat too, and seeing them refueled my simmering desire to finally get a furry little kitten. I even found a friend whose address I can use at the shelter for when I go pick out a cat (my apartment doesn't allow pets - sneaky, huh?). But finally, the mature, responsible side of me (which have been in hiding till now) took the better half of my mind and reminded me that with all my future uncertainties, now wouldn't be the best time for a cat...even if they are so adorable and lovable. If I want to play with a cat, I can go to almost anyone of my friend's place. So that's that (plus my roommate would love me since I will not kill her with her cat allergies).

And on a random note, I tried Shawarma for the first time in my life on Saturday at about 2:30am. One of the best freakin thing I've had in my life. Boy oh boy have I been missing out...I have a feeling I might become a weekly patron at Falafals.

For this week, I have one test down and two more to go. Jon, a classmate and groupmate said the funniest thing I've heard this week regarding test #1: "This is bull shit that we have to take this test while Beth [our professor] is galvanizing in New York." Ha!

Ok, enough of crazy ranting for now. Back to studying for my Central Asia midterm (I've come to the conclusion that my professor is insane by the amount of stuff he wants us to know). And by Friday, hopefully Raymer will buy all my bs for the news systems of the world.

Pray for me!

Saturday, October 23, 2004

Nomadlife

I'm looking forward to being on Nomadlife...a new age of blogging for the adventurous minds!

Friday, October 22, 2004

Without Answers

I've always been the type of person that liked to know as much as I can of something, especially when it pertains to my life. I hate to be left out in the dark. I think one of the biggest lessons I have to learn right now is how to learn to live with the fact that not everything in life comes with answers.

There's been something that's been bothering me for a long time now. I've been thinking about it on and off for more than a year now. For this situation, I have no idea why things turned out the way it did. I'm at a complete loss of words for it - was it because of a third party? Was it just a change of feelings? Was it because of me? The whole process has been such a mystery for me. Now, it's not so much as what had happened that's still effecting me as much as not having had any great closure for it.

In a perfect world, I want some answers. I want to know why, how come, for what reasons. But I'm finally coming to the realization now that not everything can come with an explination. Chances are, I'll never figure what happened or what went wrong. Even if I have the opportunity to ask for a reason, a satisfactory answer might never come, or when it does, it won't matter anymore.

I have to learn to live with and accept the fact that for some things, I'll just never know why. I have to stop imagining that I will ever find out. Forget stupid dreams or promises. I need to live with reality. I need to learn to finally let go completely and be comfortable with the fact that some things are not meant to be found out.

I guess in the end, I just never realized how attached I was.

Thursday, October 21, 2004


Me

Pieces and Fragments

Hello.

That was the past:

http://sheila.aiesec.ws

This is now...until nomadlife.

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

Testing

Testing